“Where do I start? Lindsay is absolutely amazing. I was referred to her by a good friend who had done two shoots with her and couldn’t stop singing her praises. I loved her pictures and knew it was something I wanted to pursue. I turned 45 this year and wanted to celebrate myself. I lived most of my teens, 20’s, and 30’s with severe body dysmorphia; having spent many years modeling, being under constant scrutiny for every pound I gained or skin imperfection I’d get, and never being in love with my body. After marriage, kids, and then divorce, my body dysmorphia reached an all-time high for me. 

 

No matter how much I exercised, dieted, or starved myself, weight lost and gained, I couldn’t break free from those thoughts invading my head and severely affecting my mental health and self love. I’ve spent the past two years healing my trauma and re-teaching myself healthier habits that have resulted in an amazing self love; even if I’m still working on ridding myself of my body dysmorphia, its a slow and steady process. Since I still struggle daily with it, I was incredibly nervous for my photo shoot. Thoughts raided my mind about whether I had exercised enough to get the definition I wanted, if I had dieted enough to ensure I looked the way I wanted to in my pictures, and the list just went on and on. I experienced imposter syndrome wondering who the hell I thought I was getting a photo shoot like this done when I wasn’t in perfect shape. None of it truly mattered though, once it came down to the day of my shoot. I was blown away by how beautiful my makeup and hair came out, thank you @daniellekatherinemakeup. 

 

Once it was time to start shooting, Lindsay made me feel so comfortable in my skin. She has taken the time to truly perfect her craft. She knows what positions highlight everyone’s good side, utilizes natural light and an amazing backdrop of the city and the loft. We shared stories just like I would with a new girlfriend, her attention was always on making me feel as comfortable as possible. She challenged me to contort into positions, which I loved. She knew exactly how to help me feel comfortable and sexy, so it came through in my pictures. I’m hooked and cannot wait to schedule my future session, this time heading to Lindsay in Tulum, Mexico. Looking at my pictures, the voice of my body dysmorphia has nothing to F’ing say! I can see the beautiful, awakened women I have become, with all the struggles and achievements I bear just adding to my beauty and the complexity of who I am. I am forever thankful for Lindsay on taking this journey with me and being a part of helping me, see me.”