I was tired, it was already midnight and I didn’t want to wake up in the dark, but hell, if I expected my clients to show up for themselves, how could I even consider not doing the same for myself? Really Linds?! This is what I told myself as I set my alarm for 5 a.m. for early morning self portraits.
It had been a hard summer. I knew I needed to do something that would make me feel powerful. Worthy. Inspired. I wanted to feel STRONG again and I needed to celebrate the parts of myself that I loved-and even the parts that i didn’t like so much, but was learning to. The independent, free spirited, passionate woman was still there and I needed to reconnect with her in a way that I hadn’t been able to in a while.
I set up my camera and tripod, stripped down and started my own little boudoir session. Ironically, there happened to be a racing event starting that very same morning and as dozens of cars rolled in, I wondered how I chose this day- with all these spectators driving by- as the day to frolick around naked in the desert. Laughing to myself for a moment, I debated on moving to a different spot or even calling the whole thing off. Instead I just let go.
I spent over an hour out there, posing, snapping a few shots, and running back to the camera to see what I had captured. It was exhilarating! There is nothing like being nude in nature with the vastness and warm breeze of the desert hugging me.
I will truly never forget the feeling as I packed up my gear, threw my tripod over my shoulder, and walked out of the salt flat, having just documented the woman I was on that day. Not the woman I wanted to be next year, or the one I had been months prior, but the one I was today- with all her imperfections, failures, success, love, loss, and magic. I wasn’t perfect and I still had a lot of work to do, but I was proud of who I had become. Never in my life had I felt so liberated.
I’ve made a promise to myself, that I will continue taking these portraits annually, celebrating my uniqueness, my connection to self, and the new and improved woman that I become with each passing year. It is my therapy and I’m so grateful to be able to share it with you, my friends.
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